Oh! Kakak

kakak telah mengajak aku untuk pergi ke senbuah event, ada Zahiril Adzim katanya...

aku terus setuju tanpa membantah sedikit pun.h..

penat juga kaki berjalan menuju ke Central Market..

terkadang hati ini rasa seperti ingin mengeluh..

tapi aku diam kan saja kerana dia kakak aku..

setibanya di event tersebut, kakak aku terus teruja..

senyuman yang menampakkan gigi tak lekang di wajah nya

oh... ah...

itulah perkatann yang sering keluar..

sejam event itu belangsung,

setibanya di penghujung, orang ramai berpusu pusu..

wanita semuanya... Zahiril Adzim la.. takkan tak berebut..

begitu juga kakak aku..

aku diam saja sambil memegang telefon bimbit miliknya untuk dijadikan kamera..

janjinya, '' nanti aku ambilkan gambar kau sekali''

Ok,

Aku sedang ligat meniru lagak photographer untuk merakam gambar kakak dengan Zahiril

Tidak habis dengan itu, kakak meminta supaya buku nya ditanda tangan..

aku mengikut sahaja langkahnya..

dalam hati aku bermonolog,

bila akan tiba masa aku untuk bergambar bersama lealki yang dipanggil Zahiril itu...

usai bukunya ditanda tangan,

kakak terus menarik ku keluar dari ruangan tersebut..

seperti biasa aku tidak membantah..

sedang kami menuju jalan untuk pulang,

entah mengapa hati ini terpanggil untuk mengungkit janji lama,

aku terus bersuara,

"kau kata kau nak ambik gambar aku"...

ini jawapan yang keluar..

"la.. aku lupa"

dek kerana perasaan teruja, mungkin..

ada juga rasa geram..

tidak mengapa, aku pendamkan sahaja

kerana dia Kakak aku..

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Aki..

if i could turn back times..

i would fix all my mistakes..

i would learn from it and try not to do it again..

all im asking is..

i want to be back in times where the word 'Aki' can still be pronounced...

oh, how i missed that moment..

i wish i spent some more time with him

how i wish i could say thank you to him..

how i wish i could tell him how much i love him...

Aki, now everything that could remind me of you the most can no longer to be seen..

the tree house, the chess, the shelves, the first watch that you gave me..

oh, how i wondered where they could have been..

oh, how i wished i kept them so it will help me to reminisce the memories of me with you..

i miss you, miss you so bad..

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School is Back!

the holiday has over!

the school is welcoming me!

seriously,

im not so pleased with this situation..

not that i hate school..

but i just could not help of loving holidays more..

what a drag!!

i am a bit shocked today..

as my foot steps on the floor of my class..

i see an unfamiliar face..

WHAT!

we are having a newbie?

not again..

im done enough with the backstabber..

well,

im just hoping that the newbie is not like HER

look at the bright side..

i can make friends of him..

maybe he can be my friend or maybe bestfriend..

(maybe not)

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Chance Of A Lifetime

if was given opportunities to do something or maybe won 1 million ringgit, i would:

: i would go to Disneyland

: i would go to New Zealand for the sake of Bungee Jumping

: i would go on vacation at Korea...

: i would participate The Amazing Race, still figuring out who ever gonna be my team partner

: i would send a suggestion to broadcast The Running Man: Malaysia version to Astro.

: i would go for a shop at Oxford Street or maybe New York

: i would take swimming classes

: i would have my own jet plane

: i would date Robert Pattinson

: i would ask Robert Pattinson to marry me..

(a dream that will never come true)

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